Learning patience, whether I like it or not.

It’s a Tuesday night. And I’m not getting ready for work. And I’m not making myself dinner. And I’m not doing laundry. Or paying bills. Or bathing the dog (which rarely happened anyway, what am I talking about…) And I’m not stressing about what’s next.

Instead what am I doing? I’m sitting on a patio (seemingly built for one) enjoying a fresh organic banana milkshake. I’m waiting for my vegetarian lasagna and caprese salad, and watching the hustle and bustle of San Jose’s rush hour traffic go by. …and there’s a Burger King next door, but let us forget about that πŸ™‚

What’s important is that I am taking time for me. By myself. To really reflect on the past week of farm life. I came to San Jose to fix my computer (which doesn’t seem like it shall be fixed — but should I buy a new one?), and I’m deciding to stay a couple days to do ME.

The farm is tough work. Physically and mentally, a lot of strength goes into this process. The first couple of days were quite stressful and bewildering with always so much going on and it’s difficult to feel like it’s ok to NOT be moving when there’s always work to be done. But, I’ve had to remind myself, I’m here to learn and push myself, but I’m also here to focus on me and what it is I want out of life. Where do I fit in the big scheme of things?

In these past couple of days I was able to do more of the less labor-intensive work like cleaning and watering plants and checking to make sure everything is in working order… And shredding coconuts for three hours (seriously — what a new thing that was haha). But, I was still helping to keep the farm running and the people fed and happy, but I wasn’t kicking my own ass and wearing down my mind in the meantime. It’s been better. And I’ve been happier. And I love that.

But for me, for now, I’m still trying to put all the pieces together of the life I’ve lived until now and use that puzzle to hopefully make some sense of what I want to continue with and what I want to cut out and replace with better things.

For one, patience. I’ve realized in just one week that in the states we live in a very fast paced, high-production world. I’ve asked several times when learning a new thing, “Ok so how long should it take to do this?” Or “can we do this faster?” And, I’ve always been responded to with a simple, “however long it takes to do the best you can,” and “all we have is time.” Β Such a different view, and one that I think we could all benefit from if we kept that in mind.

“however long it takes to do the best you can.”

Also, going from a remote farm in the middle of a jungle to a city like San Jose takes time. A lot of time. First, get a ride or walk (seriously) the 10-15 kilometers to the closest bus stop. Then take a bus about 1 hour to another bus stop. Then another bus to San Jose. Then walk to find a bus stop or a taxi. Then good luck finding your destination because addresses really don’t exist here. But… If there’s a will then there’s a way. And there’s no sense in rushing a process that requires its own pace… So, I’m learning and living patience.

I’ll be writing a couple more posts soon, so stay tuned. And let me know what you think I should do about writing (as in.. should I purchase a way to do that?).

A few of my favorite recent shots

Best friend - the basil plant.

Best friend – the basil plant.

The nicest produce stock picture.

The nicest produce stock picture.

beautiful costa rican view near puriscal

This is what the view was today. Amazing.

The simple things are the best. Like this "crema" I had today.

The simple things are the best. Like this “crema” I had today.

4 thoughts on “Learning patience, whether I like it or not.

  1. You definitely cannot give up the writing! So, if your computer is absolutely not fixable (at least according to the San Jose Apple techs), you need to invest in something. I know you took some painstaking efforts to come up with a budget for this endeavor, so really think about that in the decision process. Does the budget afford to buy a new Mac or should you go with a lesser expensive method that will suit the purpose for the next 3+ months of jungle living? (And hopefully the jungle won’t do to the next devise what it did to your Mac.) Maybe an IPad? Just a comment or food for thought, whatever you need. Just don’t stop writing!!

    • I’m thinking… Might head to the mall tonight to see what my options are for a less expensive tablet or something.

      It will cost $1,100 here to fix and I can buy a new MacBook Pro in the states for just a couple hundred more, whereas here a new one is about $1,800. All Apple products are more expensive here than in the states, soooo I don’t imagine I’ll buy one. Maybe an iPad. But, I’ll still need a laptop when I get back home.

      Hmmmmm I need to write. For you, but also for me. And typing on this little iPhone just isn’t cutting it πŸ™‚

  2. I want a Crema! Banana please. No sugar added! πŸ™‚
    Miss your smile- enjoying the posts- so do what you need to keep them coming…
    I’m so selfish.

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