Back to the states!

I’ve arrived at an interesting space in my journey – I’ve made the decision to go back to the states and work. I’m going to work as much as I can and save as much as possible so that before too long, I’ll be able to set sail again. I’m excited about putting into action the lessons I’ve learned and the self-confidence and determination I’ve gained – which may be a challenge, but it’s one I’m pumped for.

So, I’m off on a new adventure… Living cheaply while making and saving money. Stateside.

But, it wasn’t always smiles.

Let me be honest — when I decided to take this path, I wasn’t really happy about it. I spent a couple hours grumbling and pouting a bit, and then an evening or two (or a week, let’s be real) of slight anxiety accepting it, but now, I’ve made peace and I’m content and even a bit excited. At first though, I really had to remind myself on some of the truths I’ve received recently. Here are the things I used to make peace.

First, we must listen to our hearts.

Over the past several months, even before I left the states, I’ve let my heart guide me. I’ve made it a key point in my journey to really live as authentically as possible. Without that truth I wouldn’t be where I am at this present moment, nor would I even be in Central America probably. We cannot let society, money, our self-imposed timelines, or fear create a life path for us. We need to dig deep inside and feel what it is we need and want to do. Just the other day, a woman in her late 60s looked at me and said, “Here I am, an old woman who has had an amazing life, lived only by intuition. I’ve always lived by my feelings and it’s been great!” So, I’ll take her word for it 😉

We’re only guaranteed this moment, so let’s do what we can to make each moment be the best it possibly can be. Yes, that may mean doing some things that are less than perfect on occasion, as long as we know they’re helping us arrive where we want to be.

Second, we have the power to make things happen.

I believe that when we’re living authentically and from the heart, our soul really does shine through us. We become more attractive to the world — we’re brighter, sharper, more connected to the Earth and to our communities, and we’re able to love and be loved more! Therefore, when we’re living genuinely, we’re able to make things happen because we’re in tune with the internal forces that can make things happen (our self-power), and the external forces we use to help us along the way (the energies which control all things). For example, I know I’m going back to the states to make and save money to help fund something I feel called to do (return to the farm, travel more in Central and South America, travel to India… who knows in which order, and who knows if these things will always be what I’m called to do, and I’m sure other things will come up along the way, but for now this is what I feel). I know what’s guiding me and I’m confident I will find work I enjoy, that will help me save, and that will teach me lessons I’ll need in the future. What will I do exactly? No one knows just yet, except the Universe (but I’m thinking vineyard, wine tasting room, greenhouse, vegan restaurant… any ideas, shoot them my way!). As long as I live from the heart and let my spirit shine, good things will happen and the Universe will help me out.

Third, we must accept and honor the cycle of all things.

Everything that goes up must come down, but also everything that goes down must come back up. It’s ok that I’m going back home for a bit — it’s totally fine because I know when the time comes, I’ll be on my way again if that’s what’s in store for me. Everything is cyclical – there is no straight shot to anywhere.

And finally, it’s all about acceptance and gratitude.

Us humans have arrived at this point in evolution together, we’ve made all these tangible objects together, we’ve worked with the Earth together… everything is just as its meant to be. Which is beautiful. We must accept everything as it is and give thanks for it all. Being alive right now is exciting and wonderful, and we should have gratitude for our life and for the gifts we’re given from Mother Nature. With an attitude of acceptance and gratitude, we’ll be happy wherever we are. And that, my friends, is just what I hope to do.

But going home isn’t a bad thing!

Going home is beautiful! Once someone has spent some time away, home becomes so much more beautiful (to me at least, but I’ve heard this from many others as well). Although I didn’t “plan” on going to the states just now, it’s totally fine because there are awesome things happening everywhere on this planet. And, for some reason above my comprehension, I’m not meant to be back on the road just yet. Which, my friends, is absolutely fine.

But now where to?

So, I’ve avoided saying exactly where I’m headed because I just don’t know… I’m trying to let myself stay open to all possibilities. But this is actually really freaking hard because the possibilities are ENDLESS! I’m becoming scattered and sometimes stressed when trying to nail down just where I want to be. I have great options in Texas and in Michigan, and I have a pull to wing it in say Nashville, or drive to Oregon as I’d planned before leaving, but now just on a lot less cash. So, who knows.

But, one of the things I reminded myself of a few months ago was that when our hearts are conflicted, the wisest thing to do is nothing at all. So, when I know, I’ll know. When the point of decision has to be made, I’ll make one, and I’ll run with it. Then, if I decide I want something different, I’ll run with that! It’s all about accepting life as it comes and going with the flow, and living as happily and as genuinely as possible.

So, head up, heart open, eyes on the road, and trust that every little thing, is gonna be alright 😉

See you in a couple weeks!

The travelers…

How dare I let four years go by without doing some solo traveling! Never again.

For those of you who haven’t strapped on a backpack for at least a few weeks, please, do yourself (and the planet) a favor and do it! It may seem a bit daunting, but really, if you can open your mind and say “yes” a few more times than you say “no,” you’ll be rewarded with a lifetime of memories and new perspectives.

When spending a few days away from the farm this week, I met several travelers who were either making their way through San Jose toward one of Costa Rica’s beautiful beaches, or coming here in search of something bigger than themselves and using San Jose as the launch point. Each time I’ve traveled, especially in Costa Rica, I’ve found there are more people like me elsewhere than back home. There’s a different attitude with travelers, especially with the kind of travelers who aren’t exactly sure where they’re going or when they’ll be there. There’s this openness and excitement and curiosity that mimics what I’ve always had inside of me… a drive to know and do and see more! And I love that part about travelers, and about myself.

In the past 24 hours I’ve shared breakfast with an Englishman who just left an orphanage in Norway where he’d been volunteering for the past couple months, who is now headed to a northern Costa Rican yoga and permaculture center for a few months (he’s hoping to do some cleansing and re-setting of his mind… sounds familiar). I also hung out with an American/Israeli duo who did the 9-5 thing while somehow also working the Burning Man festival for the past nine years, and are now hoping to learn how to start their very own organic farm complete with earthships and communal living… And a Canadian gal working for the UN in New York City who came to Costa Rica to surf for Christmas. And a Swiss girl working reception at a Costa Rican hotel. And a Mexican fella who hasn’t seen his family in nearly three years because he can’t force himself to leave Costa Rica… There are so many types here! And this isn’t abnormal — the diversity of travelers on this amazing planet is huge! And I’m one of them. I have my own experiences and stories to help color the traveling world, and I intend to do just that.

So now… how to do just that, with a golden retriever, and no paycheck… Hmm… Ideas welcome 🙂